I just got through watching "Michael Jackson: Searching for Neverland" It showed the final months of his life. I didn't realize he was so broke the last few years of his life. One of his guards said that Michael Jackson was essentially homeless. He rented homes and never stayed in one location long.

At one point in the film, Michael was shopping at the Schwarz toy store and ran up s $39k bill. His card would not go through.. His security also had not been paid in five months.. They must have felt awful while he was out spending money and they did without. I just can't imagine someone of his status wouldn't be able to pay the people who helped them. I don't believe it was to dodge them, I honestly think he wanted to. At one point he gave them a check for half of what he owed them.

He had a lot of problems at the end of his life. After watching this, I don't see how he even functioned after having to worry about everything... It gave me a better understanding of how difficult his life was.... Having to worry about every step you take or every word that comes out of your mouth.

It was very touching. It came out in June of 2017 on Lifetime.... I had not heard of it until today..

The worries of this world are no longer his to bare. I find peace in that for some reason..

I've been watching a documentary about John Belushi... It's very interesting. The doctor interviewed pretty much gave a gloomy picture of Addiction - that you're always going to relapse... He'd do well at times, but according to his wife at the time, something would trigger him and he would start using again. It's an interesting story but very depressing.

I was thinking about the documentary on eminem.. the rapper.. that I watched the other day... it came out in 2004. They interviewed his mother and grandmother.. they did not seem like very nice people.

During the beginning of the documentary, his grandmother discussed how she told her mother that she was going to hell for the way that she treated her growing up... her mother, the way I took it, wanted validation that she was a good mother as she laid on her deathbed.. Eminem's grandmother would not give it to her. that really really bothered me. she just seemed so cold.

closer to the end, the interviewer said that she looks like Aubrey hepburn.. She replied "I don't want to look like Aubrey Hepburn. People have said I looked like Reba Mcantire..."

His mother seemed very cold and distant as well... It really made me appreciate my family. I never felt unloved by anyone in my family..

When this was filmed in 2004, His mom was almost my age... She was born in 1955 and was 49 years old.. I looked to see if his grandmother was still alive but couldn't find anything.