Life Archive
Thoughts, links, and project updates
A public stream of ideas, discoveries, and things I am building.
I’m watching “THE KILLING OF AMERICA (1981 DOCUMENTARY)”. I didn’t realize there was so much violence in the US prior to maybe the past 20 years. This is showing some very graphic shots of people who were killed and even while they were getting killed. We live in a very scary world and it’s been that way for a very long time, at least in the US. I’m not sure if I can finish watching this, it’s very upsetting, but I need to see it… So I can be more careful and more aware of my surroundings.
I’m Watching “The Young & Homeless (Streetlife)” on YouTube
I hate seeing people suffer. Why must people suffer? This was filmed in England in Manchester City. Stacey Dooley was the presenter or host. I watched a documentary she did on the homeless in Chicago a few weeks ago. She’s really good. I like her energy, empathy and compassion.
I’ve been watching a show called ” Inside NatWest”. It’s a British documentary about life at a bank in Huddersfield, England. It’s very interesting. It was recorded in 2015…. The people that were going into the bank asking for money were very interesting. I also found it interesting some of their incomes and the amounts of money they were borrowing for houses…. Most of them were right over 100k…. with many of the customers making less than 1k (pounds) a month… I would love to know what the real estate market looks like there now… Was very interesting….
I just got through watching “Andy Warhol Diaries”. It was very dark and depressing, but I enjoyed learning about him. He was a spokesperson for Commodore in the 1980s, something I was not aware of… I didn’t know he even existed at that point in life. Even with all of his success, he was still insecure and depressed most of the time. He worried a lot. He did not die from AIDS, like a lot of people, including myself, thought… But from complications from gallbladder surgery. Two of his brothers successfully sued the hospital and doctor…
I’m watching “I’m Scared Of Spending the Rest of My Life Alone | Age of Loneliness | Only Human on YouTube” They are talking to a 100 year old woman who says she is lonely and that she’s afraid of dying alone. The interviewer asked how she could be feel alone since she has so many children and grandchildren. They are interviewing people who have lost their partners as well. They interviewed all ages.
one young woman 39 years old said that she has tried internet dating but it was just another platform to get rejected on. She said that it’s exhausting to stay on there and she thinks its better just not to be on there.
One man said he dreads every night going to bed alone.
One guy who was 42 says he starts his day about 4pm, plays video games and goes to bed about 330am. He lived in a small apartment by himself. He said he would love if someone would knock on his door to visit.
The end of the program was very sad. A widow whose husband had died and had no children died 5 weeks after they interviewed her. She died alone in her home.
I swear, I just don’t know about life. I hate to see people suffering in this world, I really do. I have to limit my intake of this. But it helps me to realize how short and fleeting life really is.
I can’t let this happen to Mom. I worry about her being alone or feeling alone. I get mad at her and say mean things and I always regret it. I want to see Henry but I also hate leaving mom.
I watched “Life In A Crack House | US Gang Exposed (Crime Documentary) | Real Stories”
This really bothered me. I hate seeing people suffer and struggle. A lot of them said they didn’t expect to live long so they wanted to be happy the short time they were here. I also heard people say the same thing in a 1960’s documentary about poverty in Chicago. It really depressed me to watch both. They put cameras in a drug house and watched them for six weeks…
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