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I just got through watching “Michael Jackson: Searching for Neverland” It showed the final months of his life. I didn’t realize he was so broke the last few years of his life. One of his guards said that Michael Jackson was essentially homeless. He rented homes and never stayed in one location long. At one point in the film, Michael was shopping at the Schwarz toy store and ran up s $39k bill. His card would not go through.. His security also had not been paid in five months.. They must have felt awful while he was out spending money and they did without. I just can’t imagine someone of his status wouldn’t be able to pay the people who helped them. I don’t believe it was to dodge them, I honestly think he wanted to. At one point he gave them a check for half of what he owed them. He had a lot of problems at the end of his life. After watching this, I don’t see how he even functioned after having to worry about everything… It gave me a better understanding of how difficult his life was…. Having to worry about every step you take or every word that comes out of your mouth. It was very touching. It came out in June of 2017 on Lifetime…. I had not heard of it until today.. The worries of this world are no longer his to bare. I find peace in that for some reason..

I’ve been watching a documentary about John Belushi… It’s very interesting. The doctor interviewed pretty much gave a gloomy picture of Addiction – that you’re always going to relapse… He’d do well at times, but according to his wife at the time, something would trigger him and he would start using again. It’s an interesting story but very depressing.

I watched a documentary about Kurt Cobain last night. I had to buy it off of Amazon Prime. Originally I thought I could watch it from Hulu but it required that you also have an HBO Max subscription… I had already subscribed to Hulu when I realized you had to have the HBO Max subscription in conjunction… I first added it to my watch list in memento on Feb 20, 2020… so a few years ago.

I was thinking about the documentary on eminem.. the rapper.. that I watched the other day… it came out in 2004. They interviewed his mother and grandmother.. they did not seem like very nice people.

During the beginning of the documentary, his grandmother discussed how she told her mother that she was going to hell for the way that she treated her growing up… her mother, the way I took it, wanted validation that she was a good mother as she laid on her deathbed.. Eminem’s grandmother would not give it to her. that really really bothered me. she just seemed so cold.

closer to the end, the interviewer said that she looks like Aubrey hepburn.. She replied “I don’t want to look like Aubrey Hepburn. People have said I looked like Reba Mcantire…”

His mother seemed very cold and distant as well… It really made me appreciate my family. I never felt unloved by anyone in my family..

When this was filmed in 2004, His mom was almost my age… She was born in 1955 and was 49 years old.. I looked to see if his grandmother was still alive but couldn’t find anything.

I just got the watching “Biggie: The Life of Notorious B.I.G. | Full Episode | A&E” on YouTube. I was on a roller coaster of emotions while watching it. There were a lot of details I wasn’t aware of… and I had no idea what a positive and loving attitude he had about life.

I believe this came out in 2017 on the A&E Network. I read an article about where he grew up in Brooklyn… That his childhood home in Brooklyn was selling for $725k… But the listing made no mention that it was once home to a famous rapper. The journalist contacted the agent and she basically snubbed him… This was back in 2013….Another person that was asked about him said that noone knows him anymore and that he’s not important.. I just find that very hard to believe.

I’m guessing Brooklyn has gentrified a lot, which really bothers me… People being pushed out of their homes… It just really does..

Anyway, I really enjoyed watching this.

I just got through watching “JANIS JOPLIN LITTLE GIRL BLUE PBS DOCUMENTARY”. I think I’ve seen parts of it before or started it and half watched it. It’s strange to watch these Documentaries sometimes. It’s almost like you really know them and they are still around. There was someone who read the letters she sent to her family… It sounded just like her… What a neat person. At the end they had Pink say something about her.. It came out in 2016 on PBS.. it’s a series called “American Masters”

I was just watching an interview with Joan Collins….. She made $1650 a week on some of her projects in the 50’s. She also appeared in Star Trek, Batman, some horror films and Cleopatra. She was replaced with Elizabeth Taylor though, because the production company was losing money and wanted to go with more of a sure thing…

Her daughter Katy, was in a coma for seven weeks after a bad accident. It was right before she played on Dynasty…

I just watched a clip of an interview with Madonna discussing paying attention to the subtleties in life. She says they are out there… and mentions the word clocking (which I had never heard of when this interview came out in 2000) and says she thinks sensitive people can pick up on subtleties and nuances.

She says there are a lot of things out there that people aren’t tapping into… I think she’s exactly right…

I like Bjork’s music, especially from the 90s… But I’m not impressed with her as a person… She’s rude and has a shitty attitude towards her fans..

This is a clip from sometime mid 90s where an interviewer asked her if she felt she had a responsibility being a role model… She said “No, that’s their problem” very smug like. I’m just not impressed with her.. there have been many other instances of her acting like an ass towards people. It turns me off to even listening to her music.

Kathy Griffin said that Mel Robbins is a sham in her latest YouTube video… Around the 15-17 minute mark… Interesting.

Tina Turner always tried to get 10 hours of sleep according to this article… I remember watching an interview that Oprah Winfrey did with her where she said the same thing.. She goes to bed late and gets up late…

Joan Collins is in her 90s and still working. What an inspiration. She’s made two recent movies, “A Murder Between Friends” and “My Dutchess”. The latter being about Wallis Simpson..